Utterly zonkified.
Yes, I am. Exhausted. I have spent the last few weeks working very hard indeed, helping J pack boxes and clean up etc in preparation for big house move, and have been ill the whole time. I haven’t had any chance to really rest (although the occasional 1 hour nap snatched in an afternoon between shifts has been *bliss*), and my body is punishing me… I am absolutely knackered and it’s not going to get better any time soon!
I feel like I’ve hardly had time to think. And I’m scared of thinking because it means facing the short time I have between now and leaving for Burma in 2 weeks. I don’t feel prepared, logistically, though there is probably less to do than I think. I’m not sure whether I’m prepared psychologically, but I’m also not sure that it’s even possible to prepare for something like this, so I’m just going to DO it and hope it works out okay, which it probably will.
I am not devoting any time to anything else right now, because I simply don’t have it. I know some people are getting frustrated because I’m not emailing or chatting on msn, and don’t have time to meet up with all my friends before I leave… I’m sorry about this, but I can do little about it 
Right now, I just want to stay in my bed for a week and recouperate. I’ve been coughing up nasty things for a couple of weeks and my cold is getting worse rather than better. I have basically been ill for about a month and a half and just can’t seem to recover.
When I arrive in Burma, I have just under a week to explore Rangoon/Yangon and chill out before my induction. I hope this will be my chance to rest and get my body and mind ready for this new exciting experience.
What has kept me going recently is the students who I love, the ones whose energy is unerring and who run up to me shouting my name with their arms open. Jason has kept me going because he provides a distraction for me, a different project (albeit tiring), and because he’s provided my training for my Advanced Open Water diving course (all finished now :)). The other thing which has made me laugh intermittently is Colm’s ridiculous voicemail messages on my mobile. Hilarious! Seeing him tomorrow 
Bed time now…. Full day excursion tomorrow!
